Friday, August 31, 2012

tough

i've been a bit slack with my blog for ages and i'm sorry but things have been tough and i have been struggling to keep up. My teachers are putting alot of pressure on everyone this term because our grades affect what courses we can choose in year 11.

i don't handle pressure very well it makes me stressed had a sore stomach for a few days doctor put it down to stress. Still mums been great helping me with my homework and assingments and trying to see if i can get put in a easy maths class next year. Plus she picked me up when my stomach was really sore probably because we were going to write a 6 paragraph essay in 1 hour by hand in the next class, which is no easy feat for someone with low frustration tolerance and slow messy handwriting.

Mum explained to my sisters about my NLD i don't know how much they understand but at least she tried, friends well they are there but are displaying signs they don't really want to be. Or i think they are it could be me being paranoid.


Can't wait for next year easy maths library tech at TAFE and maybe some more help from my teachers !.

 

Monday, July 2, 2012

warriors

i am the number one fan of a series of books called warriors by erin hunter which is about a group of cats who fight for survival in a forest in groups called clans and it is AWSOME! i am suggesting anyone who has kids aged maybe nine to fifteen should get them to read it especially if they love animals there are four main series not including the mangas super editions and guides.

The one thing i cannot stand is someone who thinks they know more about warriors then me and whos info is wrong anyway! i am happy to answer any questions concerning warriors so just comment if your curious and want to know more!

Monday, June 18, 2012

feeling lopsided

hmm.. lately i have been feeling a bit like i lean to the right when i walk not sure if its NLD related or not is weakness in the left side of the body common with NLD? i guess it could explain why i mix up my marching at cadets so much but i don't know.. my birthdays next month i can't wait im so excited even if it is just after school goes back the holidays are in two weeks!!!

no school! and more importantly my reports coming actually that may not be a good thing particulary where maths is involved but still.. i went on art camp and brought two new books already read the first one even though i swear i didn't start reading it right after i brought it because my mum told me not to do that because then i finish it before i leave the store..

Monday, May 21, 2012

stress

i realised something today, i can relax with a book or at home but around my friends i don't know how to relax i stress out trying to remember not to talk to much and not to just sit and read but to pay attention and contribute to the conversation even though i don't want too. i need to have friends i need to be social, But i just want to go find a bench with no one on it and read and hide from all the girls talking about makeup and movies and boys.

i feel like theres a jigsaw puzzle and its all complete and i'm the leftover peice trying to fit into a puzzle where i can't fit.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

exams

i don't want to go back to school after the holidays cause i know we are having year ten exams next term and i know that even if i do study there will be something that i don't know how to do off by heart and then i'll get stuck and skip the question and then i won't get as many marks and if that happens with every couple of questions i won't get enough marks to pass...

i have more friends now but i dunno if we'll ever be best friends i know the works going to get harder and i know i'm barely passing all my classes as it is and i dread getting my report at the end of next term cause i know it'll have all Cs or maybe a few Ds on it and then i'll get in trouble

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

damn geniuses

my mother has made sure after a lot of nagging the school that i was put in the maths class with the least bullies/ distracting people this also happens to be the top maths class! most of the kids in there do year 11 maths with ease and if they were all 16 would probably be in year 11! so therefore my maths teacher teaches things veyr fast without putting the steps in an easy to undertand way then he writes a complicated algerbra sum on the board and says " this is very basic stuff guys" which if you ask me it is not!.
So tomorrow we have this math test and the teacher says " class if you get less then 70 percent i will phone your parents and you will stay afterschool every day this week er for me to fix this"

I have as luck would have it had this teacher for THREE years he knows me, He knows how i normally do in maths test generally just passing and yet he makes no consideration on how hard it will be for me to get this 70 percent or above mark.

Mother says its cause he has to teach the ' majority' of the class and can't focus on individuals but i think because HE is a maths genius he does not think it is hard to get 70 percent i do go to tutoring on tuesday arvos but that can only lift my grade so much!

so i have come to accept the fact that i will be spending after school on the last week of the term sitting in the maths room getting confused by my maths teacher and mother will probably lecture me after she gets the phone call about failing even though above 50 is a pass.

I always leave his class feeling more confused about maths the i was when i went in and sometimes i leave on the verge of tears because i don't understand anything hes talking about and everyone else does! it would be almost worth the bullying to be put down a class so i hope i am!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

on the right road.. i think

hello everyone!
sorry for the infrequent blog update but life is very busy at the moment i now go to maths tutoring once a week i think this is a good thing as my teacher has given me no indications that i am failing which is good becuase i don't mind what my grade is as long as its not a D or an E although my parents like most would prefer if i would aim for an A but i have a feeling i'm going to be just scraping a B for most of my subjects.

My fanfiction reading is going well i am so glad they have like 1000 stories on the harry potter fanfic site else i'd be out of things to read :] and i am re reading Twilight because it is awsome! and i made a new group of friends that are lots of fun! Although of course i keep hanging with my old friend too.

Friday, March 2, 2012

frustrateted

frustrated at my teachers for not understanding
frustrated at my friends for not even trying to understand
frustrated at myself for not being as good as everyone else
and not being a social success like the other girls
frustrated at my work for not making any sense to me or anyone else
frustrated cause i can't seem to do anything right
and its not fair
frustrated cause no one gives a damn
frustrated is my middle name

books

 yay! my english teacher told us that this term we will be reading a novel which is good cause preferably i would like school to be just sitting in the library reading and thats it! also my maths teacher is sick which equals no homework so i dont have to sit and stare at the page wondering how come my maths teacher said this is easy and that we have done it before when its super hard and i don't remember doing it before! i guess that what you get when your in the top class still you'd think he would check that everyone HAD done it before he gave out the homework oh well my mum helps me through it so its ok!

last nights dinner was the best we had Tacos nothing special but i was starving and had four and they were so yummy, opps there i go letting everything i think come out my mouth i'm supposed to be working on that but i haven't got the hang of sorting through my thoughts finding one relevent to what everyone else is talking about and then making it appropriate and then saying it! oh well i will get there one day!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

swimming

i do swim club twice a week at the pool it is a good sport for me too do because unless i am competeing i don't have to race against anyone and since i don't like group work or team sports it is good as it is largely individual AND [ i consider this the best thing] even if we are racing they don't use a starting gun or anything that is particulary loud and startling thye just use this beeper thing it scared me a bit the first time i heard it but i am used to it now i am also getting better at diving off the diving block which i used to be uncomftable with though i am not sure why

Sunday, February 12, 2012

schools back

schools back in and i am exhausted last monday i had vertigo cause i was so tired and almost fell down the stairs at cadets needless to say i fully deserved the massive lie in i had this morning and the hot bath i will be having tonight swim club and dance have made my legs and shoukders sore and i feel like a old woman but at least i get to see my friends i got into the top class and i like it cause i have the same maths teacher even if the homework is super hard

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

oh my gosh

i have been a horrible blogger keeping ou all waiting so long i have been on holiday and have had no desire to write but now i am back and better then ever os i will tell you whats been going on with me while i was away
i got three books for chrismas
i got a kmart voucher and bought for more
and got two as presents so now i have nine new books!!!
i am going into year ten this year OMG three years left of school scary!
and i hope to make some more friends with any new kids that come to my school { hopefully! keeping my fingers crossed!}
and i heard my mother say when we were at the shops and i was tucking in to my chinese that i get grumpy when i am hungry i don't think so but if mother says it then it must be true!