damn geniuses

my mother has made sure after a lot of nagging the school that i was put in the maths class with the least bullies/ distracting people this also happens to be the top maths class! most of the kids in there do year 11 maths with ease and if they were all 16 would probably be in year 11! so therefore my maths teacher teaches things veyr fast without putting the steps in an easy to undertand way then he writes a complicated algerbra sum on the board and says " this is very basic stuff guys" which if you ask me it is not!.
So tomorrow we have this math test and the teacher says " class if you get less then 70 percent i will phone your parents and you will stay afterschool every day this week er for me to fix this"

I have as luck would have it had this teacher for THREE years he knows me, He knows how i normally do in maths test generally just passing and yet he makes no consideration on how hard it will be for me to get this 70 percent or above mark.

Mother says its cause he has to teach the ' majority' of the class and can't focus on individuals but i think because HE is a maths genius he does not think it is hard to get 70 percent i do go to tutoring on tuesday arvos but that can only lift my grade so much!

so i have come to accept the fact that i will be spending after school on the last week of the term sitting in the maths room getting confused by my maths teacher and mother will probably lecture me after she gets the phone call about failing even though above 50 is a pass.

I always leave his class feeling more confused about maths the i was when i went in and sometimes i leave on the verge of tears because i don't understand anything hes talking about and everyone else does! it would be almost worth the bullying to be put down a class so i hope i am!

on the right road.. i think

hello everyone!
sorry for the infrequent blog update but life is very busy at the moment i now go to maths tutoring once a week i think this is a good thing as my teacher has given me no indications that i am failing which is good becuase i don't mind what my grade is as long as its not a D or an E although my parents like most would prefer if i would aim for an A but i have a feeling i'm going to be just scraping a B for most of my subjects.

My fanfiction reading is going well i am so glad they have like 1000 stories on the harry potter fanfic site else i'd be out of things to read :] and i am re reading Twilight because it is awsome! and i made a new group of friends that are lots of fun! Although of course i keep hanging with my old friend too.

frustrateted

frustrated at my teachers for not understanding
frustrated at my friends for not even trying to understand
frustrated at myself for not being as good as everyone else
and not being a social success like the other girls
frustrated at my work for not making any sense to me or anyone else
frustrated cause i can't seem to do anything right
and its not fair
frustrated cause no one gives a damn
frustrated is my middle name

books

 yay! my english teacher told us that this term we will be reading a novel which is good cause preferably i would like school to be just sitting in the library reading and thats it! also my maths teacher is sick which equals no homework so i dont have to sit and stare at the page wondering how come my maths teacher said this is easy and that we have done it before when its super hard and i don't remember doing it before! i guess that what you get when your in the top class still you'd think he would check that everyone HAD done it before he gave out the homework oh well my mum helps me through it so its ok!

last nights dinner was the best we had Tacos nothing special but i was starving and had four and they were so yummy, opps there i go letting everything i think come out my mouth i'm supposed to be working on that but i haven't got the hang of sorting through my thoughts finding one relevent to what everyone else is talking about and then making it appropriate and then saying it! oh well i will get there one day!