give me a break

whenever things look ok something happens and then its back to where i started, at the start of last week i was happy my friends and i were all getting along well laughing and gossiping and doing normal teenage stuff but as the week proggressed i noticed that they were starting to reject me putting their bags up as i approached so  i couldn't sit with them and staring at me and whispering they thought i didn't notice but i did and i knew what was going to happen so i tried to enjoy what i knew was limited time laughing with my friends then wensday lunch time the uneventful happened one of my best friends in the group walked up to me and told me that her and the others did not want me to sit with them anymore i was a bit disappointed but not surprised. i smiled and told my friend that was ok and i'd see her later now everytime i walk past where they sit i remember the times laughing and gossiping and wish with all my heart that i could go back and sit with them and laugh but i know if i did they wouldn't be so nice and would outright tell me to leave.

i still have one good friend with me but its not the same i know its a year nine thing so i am sorta hoping next year they will invite me back as unlikely as it is... can't life just give me a break?

fanfiction

i am so sorry for not updating in forever but i have discovered something wonderful fanfiction it is so cool and i have been reading on the computer and my DS non-stop i cant get enough in a few weeks i am going to a big city where i can go book shopping i cant wait! especially since Inheritence will be out by then

holidays

its nearly holidays hooray no school two weeks with me, my books, and my bed, the only way it could get better was if one of my friends would answer their phone last term next term  then i am in year ten wooh!

unlucky

me and my family were on a holiday this weekend but we could not get home because the road was closed because there had been a car crash on the road a lady was driving and then she rolled her car her husband died and her little three year old was not wearing a seatbelt and she was flung from the car

busy? never

assingment or essay HANDWRITTEN this type of work is troublesome keepingm y writting neat enough so the teacher can read it is hard to do all the way through but at least i have three weeks to do it so i can take my time

school, school, school,production,homework,school

schools three weeks in and everything is in full swing i perform the whole school production on thursday, friday, and saturday night tests assingments and homework is pouring in from all my subjects

perspective

i have checked out a few other blogs mostly {ok always} written by a parent of a child with NLD-NVLD and it made me glad and a bit sad glad because in this way i know there are really others out there who struggle like i do and sad because mine seems to be the only blog actually written by the young person who actually does the struggling, there are plently of adults with NLD who blog bu no teens or children of course i don't really expect children to blog but what about the teens? if there are so many why do none of them blog and share their experiences?

two sides

i have two sides theres the nice one that offers to do jobs and likes helping mum and can fold a whole basket of washing without complaining once and can make dinner once a week and then theres the other one that doesn't want to help mum at all and resists every step of the way that is moody and grumpy and over sensitive and mean

finally

its finally holidays but for some reason my report hasn't come yet i'm really nervous in case its not good but i think it will be ok just i find some things a bit hard doesn't mean i don't behave in class one of my friends thinks a guy who used to bully me is nice and i suppose when that person is not being a pig maybe he is nice everyone deserves a second chance don't they?

sailing

going sailing tomorrow with a good friend and my crush thankfully not gonna be on the same boat but still i hope nothing embarrasing happens like today i was painting and i pushed the roller up too fast and bright bluue paint splattered all over me i tried to wash it off but people kept calling me a smurf { dont know what that is} so some must have still been on my face!

guests

we currently have guests staying at our house and my mother told me not to talk as much when she said this i wondered if she knew me at all cause she should know just how impossible that simple instruction will be to follow when i think of something some part of it or mostly the whole thought comes out my mouth its not that i'm being rude it just seems like i HAVE to say this or that and in the end i've been  talking for half an hour and the other person hasn't been able to say a thing

phew

man my schuedule has been full lately and its only gonna get worse wondering how i'll fit in my blog

NAPLAN

this week we have NAPLAN testing if its like any other test it should'nt be too hard, one teacher actually said she feels sorry for us because we have to do the tests not sure what to make of that

its the holdiays!

yay! no school for two weeks and i went to exmouth and now i'm sunburnt and tonight i'm going to brisbane to see some relatives its going to be fun cause brisbane has big shops and i can get a new book/ new books
and i'm gonna pack as many books as i can
i love books :]

the sky

i was in the backyard looking at the sky and i think its a different kind of blue here than in perth isn't that strange? u no i've only had four open minded teachers in my life and consquently they were always my favourite teachers what does that say about the majority of teachers?

savants

i was watching a show about savants people with extraordinary abilities in art or maths or music most of them have autism they can hardly speak but are considered genisus how cool is that?:

holidays

the holidays are coming yay!! i get to go to exmouth for easter i love easter its so much fun i got a award for maths and i was so excited because i never ever get awards in MATHS and when i told my mum she told me i did a good job and she bought me a shirt that says ' chick with brains' its so cool english is really hard but i love it so i'm gonna keep going

life goes on

yesterday i was reminded that life goes on one of my friends told me that afterschool her mum was taking her to see a ultrasound of her new baby brother i'm very excited for her life is full of challenges but also full of beautful things like new life!

loud noises

when i was little i used to run screaming out of any room with ballons in it because i didn't like the noise they made when they popped i don't make a big dealk out of it anymore but i still don't like loud noises does anyone else have the same problem?

trouble on the friend front

i've had some issues with my friends lately they don't talk to me as much and theres a new girl who does not like me at all but shes friends with my friends on the brighter side today me and a boy i know decided to go out i can see the hope on the horizon

new challenges

i've started year nine and its full of new challenges my friends are not as tolerante with my repeating stuff and my lack of social skills and the fact that i always have something to say alot more go aways then i would like and one of my best friends is leaving theres a new girl whos friends with my friends and doesn't like me also i'm in the top class for english got told we won't be aloud to type essays and stuff could spell trouble

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sorry

sorry i have'nt blogged in ages i've been busy there was the australian day cyclone and then school started but i promise to blog more often now